As I step into the elevator,
I am caught speechless by her presence.
I stupidly stare at her primitive beauty.
Longing to reach out but scared to try, so unknown.
He comments upon my strange reaction,
And I run fast, Not sure of why I'm so scared.
From across the room I see them together,
Playful and obviously in love.
My curiosity gets the best of me and as I drawn near,
Calmness pervades my troubled mind.
The change is so sudden,
I am once again caught speechless.
He and his lady have noticed my caution,
They calmly wait for me to curb my fear.
They recognize my tendancy to run,
And agree between them to bring me closer.
She with her calmness and he with his openness,
Their calm effects me and I open up.
Slowly she comes to me,
My heartbeat rises with the thrill.
Yet as soon as she touches me it is calmed,
As she begins her teachings of peace and love.
He grants me the trust to hold her,
and he loves her enough to share her.
She draws me deeper,
Into their warm, calming circle of love.
To be between the two of them
Is to be in a new and different place.
But the trust helps keep me calm,
The fear in me is swiftly killed.
She has calmed me and shown me love
I turn to discover this creature she calls hers.
He to is quiet and calm, yet different,
They balance each other so well.
To be so loved by such a lady he deserves my attention,
To see what it is that she sees in him.
He is not one I would have found without her guidance,
And I am grateful to her for the introduction.
Without her he is a cautious feline,
Yet intregingly different from others I have known.
I take the calm acceptance I have learned from her,
And apply it to the man she calls hers.
Slowly he opens to me,
My walls flare up in defence.
She overrides the command I give myself,
"If I trust him so can you".
She grants me the trust to call out to him,
And she loves him enough to share him.
We test each other like felines at each others border's,
Open up then pull back and check for pain.
We are both hesitant and find ourselves strangely talkative,
As she smiles at the work she has done.
It seems she has seen a need in each of us,
That she feels we can fill in each other.
I learn why she loves him so,
His calm accepting ways.
Enough push to let his desires known,
But responsive to reactions and accepting of any denial.
Yet he dosen't let me run away,
And strangly I keep coming back to discover more of him.
Once she is sure we feel safe,
She pulls her calmness back.
His frolic playfulness comes out,
And I find myself responding in kind.
She must leave us for she needs her rest,
And trusts him into my care.
He and I talk thru the night,
Learning and discovering each other.
He finds himself opening more than normal,
And I find myself lowering walls I try so hard to build.
But we both must sleep,
And as I leave I wonder if it was just a fluke.
Morning comes and I wonder how much of it was a dream,
My drunken delusions from needing to be wanted.
When I see him I am defensive,
To close, to quick usually makes them run away.
He has people to see and things to do,
But says he will be back, I only half believe him.
My walls come up again,
And the tough persona searches for other prey.
Then I feel his calmness enter my presence,
I turn to smile and he runs again.
Confused I start the normal run of depression,
But the calmness I learned from her yesterday prevents it.
He returns again,
This time alone, ready to focus attention on me.
This time I am not sure I want to risk,
But he patiantly awaits my desision.
We wander off to explore,
And learn of each other some more.
Morning comes and he must leave,
Out into the cold she hates so.
He trusts her into my care,
and we wander off alone.
She once again to help me learn calmness,
And we share the love we both have for him.
I marvel at their love,
And I am so grateful that I was chosen to share it.
To Cat
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